A mum's letters

26 november 2015 Dear baby, Hope u r doing fine. I too m well n can feel u inside ne. It is a lovely feeling n nothing can b more miraculous than this. If u r a gal...i wish sum day u wil go thru ol this n if u r a boy then m srry love.. Now a days i hardly get any time to talk with u.. Naisha didi keeps us ol on our toes. U may hear her name ol the tym since she wakes up till she sleeps. In sum more time...u wil see her. I wish u two share a great bond. May u r lyk ur father...he is still a kid at heart. He is sleeping in another room bt a few minutes ago ge woke up, came to our rum, went back n slept lyk that. As if a child wakes up from his slp n cnt find his mumma nearby. U know he is such an enthusiast... He is ecstatic wen v buy sumthing new and sad like anytging if sumthing is lost. He is the most amazing soul u will ever lie ur eyes upon n i luv him the most. Bt i luv u as well. I am waiting to c u. Hope u cum to us in ur best of health n complete us. Love; Mumma

Dear baby, It has been 10 months since I and you lost the cord between us. I still cant believe that it happened to me...to you...to us. Bt yes, it happened. And no mother can ever explain how it feels. You suddenly stopped being part of me. And after that I stopped writing at all... I never read any of my letters for you since that day, untill today. Today, i decided to have this conversation with you as I have realized that i cant make peace with life without forgiving and forgetting. And I have reasons to move on. I am expecting again... Expecting YOU again. And i want to tell you that I am not able to be as happy as I was the previous time. I feel insecure and scared. Even a hint of pain scares me to no end. On first of september, we shall complete three months of being together. Uptill now, i was avoiding to write to you, avaoiding to even think of you coz when this all is suddenly lost, it hurts like nothing else. But then I realised that this is not fair to you...