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A letter to baby's father

Dear HUSBAND,
Life has changed and it has changed fast. I always had doubts how would you cope up when we will have a baby. How would you react when a tiny lil thing will share bed with us. I wondered if you would be jealous that someone has captured all my attention. I never worried about how i would adjust with all these changes as i always felt that motherhood comes naturally to me..as per me, i was born to be a mum.
But it turns out that you are the one to whom parenthood comes naturally. I sometimes get irritated when she keeps me up whole night. In initial days, i looked at her and she looked back wide eyed, i felt for her yet a bond was missing. But such was never the case with you. You two hit the cord instantly right after you held her in your arms, i could sense the love in your eyes. I feel jealous that i didn't feel that way. You are the one whose voice she started to recognize first (as i believe) though i am the one who stayed awake all night to feed her, to change her nappies, to hold her close, to soothe her and to be with her always.
I did everything that my or your mother did to us yet it took some time to develop a bond with her. I wonder how you were attached with her since always though i am the one with whom her cord was connected, literally.
I used to sit and feed her at odd hours when you were sleeping like a baby and i cant tell you how desperately i wanted to come and hug you and kiss you and tell you how adorable you look while sleeping and how very much i love you.
I felt like a man whose wife is snatched from him by a lil kid of his own as you were always engrossed with her. And you,on the other hand, behaved like a woman who does not have time to look at her husband as her all time is given to a tiny tot.
But i guess this is the case with us since always. And now, when i too have forgotten the pain of delivering and have fallen in love with our daughter... I want to thank you for pouring love over her when i was not there to do so.
And i want to thank you to help me remove all the negativity which was eating me up.
It has been almost 9 years since we know each other and you still do not cease to give me new reasons to fall in love with you.

Yours;
Silly, imperfect but head over heels in love with you.. WIFE

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